Wednesday, August 7, 2024

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Today I scheduled an appointment with a therapist. I also bought Pokemon Violet. I wish more people I knew had a Switch. I've recently been spending a lot of time on Discord with my good friend Dario. We've been watching Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood. It's day three of me quitting social media and 24 days sober. A lot of thought went into these decisions. Social media wasn't helping me connect with others the way I wanted it to anymore. I've been going on walks frequently and even went out and bought a gym membership. It's a rocky road but I'm sure things and myself will get better in time. I'm doing just fine. My relationships are improving and my brain is getting better.

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